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Finally it's time for the entry about my senior's day and the anime convention! It took me quite a while, sowwy ;w;

So we had our senior's day on 13th of this month. It was basically our last official day of high school so we have this tradition here in Finland to celebrate it by dressing up in costumes and going to throw some candy to the kids that are still in primary school ^-^ This year our school's theme was Hollywood and I was dressed up as Alice from Alice in Wonderland! Though I didn't take any good pictures of my costume (I'm sorry, I'm such a failwhale Q-Q) I have a group photo for you~ Can you spot me? x3

This was our red carpet x3 And the text on the golden base is a mixup with "Hollywood" and our town's Swedish name "Klövskog"~

Here's our lovely lady group~

And this is from the truck ride! Hurr durr it was awesome! ;w;

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After the truck ride we head to the Helsinki to wait our cruise to start~ We had to wait more than two hours at the terminal before getting on the ship =3= Luckily it went kinda fast since I had the amazing company with me ^-^

At the terminal~ We all look kinda dead here :'D

The cruise was fun! I was actually kinda nervous about it since I'm not that much of a party person. But I actually enjoyed myself in there~ I was having a lot of fun talking with my other friends who also weren't drunk and then I got to laugh at my other friends who actually were drunk :'D Oh my it was a blast. And it wasn't exactly an alcohol-free cruise for me either :0 I diiiid drink one drink but since I felt like I was going to get a headache after it I didn't drink another one =3= But still, I don't think alcohol is my thing~

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After the cruise I head to the Lahti where they organized this anime convention called Desucon Frostbite! It was the first anime convention in Europe with an age limit of 18. And I have to say that I enjoyed this convention much more that I've enjoyed the ones without the age limit. I didn't have to bear with those annoying 12-year-old anime fangirls who're just at the conventions to meet their friends and think that they're the kings of the World and everyone should go as they want it to go. The staff had actually been focused on the programs a lot more this year and I got to see many interesting lectures and panel discussions this time~ Oh and it was finally nice to see some programs that were about R18 stuff lawl x3 We went to see this lecture where this women told nerd guys how to get laid :'D Oh my I haven't laughed that much in a long time~

I also bought a lot of new stuff and I feel poor now ;-; This is the only thing why I hate conventions, they take all my money :'D

Two necklaces and tentacle earrings I bought~

I got this awesome the GazettE poster too ;w;

And these little Kuroko no basuke figures!

I also bought these two yaoi doujinshis, a bunny plushie (which pic was in one of my previous entries), a canvas bag that says "I'm not getting older, I'm leveling up" and a dark grey fox hat ´u` But I didn't take any pictures of them tho~

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 And when I got back home from the convention I got a package waiting for me~ I ordered Jaejoong's repackage album WWW amd the GazettE's Beautiful Deformity~ WWW came with a poster and this tiny card with Jaejoong's picture on both sides ;w; Sadly I haven't been able to get the poster on my wall yet... I don't know where to put it Q-Q

I had some problems with WWW when I tried to fit it in shelf... I need more roooom~

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Oh and all credits from the pictures of our senior's day goes to my friend~ She was so nice to bring the camera with her to the school ;w;

Best regards,

N ♥ 

XVI

Here is the part two of the 56 questions~ And I also would like to add something for the first part. In the question 16 I forgot to mention Savuna Ilmaan (Antti Tuisku) which is my all time favorite song

29. Most embarrassing moment

When I told my first crush I liked him… Oh god don’t make me bring back these memories >-<

30. Two of my insecurities

Ugh I don’t know… 1) My voice 2) My skin probably

31. What I would do If I won the lottery

I would give about half of the money to my parents! And I don’t know what I would do with the rest of it~

32. A description of the boy I like

Well well~ He’s sweet and kind, he has an ability to cheer me up and make me forget everything else when I’m talking with him. I like listen him talking about everything since he seems to know a lot about stuff. And I like how he also says things pretty straightforward and don’t make silly excuses. Oh, and he can be sometimes much of a teaser tho :b …And now I have another memory for my embarrassing-moments category…

33. What I love most about myself

I love how I can adapt to almost every situation well ´u` Oh and I like the thing that I don’t speak like “regular Finns”. I don’t have a monotone voice so I change the tone of my voice a lot~ 

34. My biggest pet peeves

When someone constantly tries to talk to me when I’m watching or playing something, when people don’t shut soda bottles’ cork properly and elders who think they can be disrespectful against younger people just because they’re older.

35. What bands I’ve seen live

Abingdon Boys School, LM.C, the GazettE… And then there are some Finnish artists too~

36. Who my best friends are

This has already been answered… 

37. How many kids I want in the future

How should I know this right now? >-< I’m not really good with kids but that doesn’t meant I wouldn’t like to have my own in the future… But still, when the right time comes, I’ll know~

38.  My idea of a perfect date

I don’t think I would care that much about what we’d be doing, it’ll the company that mattered ´u` But we could do something that we both would enjoy doing~ I wouldn’t like it if he tried to make me have a great time but then he wouldn’t enjoy the day that much ;-; But one thing I can say for sure, my idea of a perfect date wouldn’t be a dinner date. It would just make me feel uncomfortable cause I’m such a picky eater >-< 

39. What I’m really good at

Remembering maps and directions? Kinda lame talent but it comes handy when I’m in a place I don’t know really well :’D

40. Most Traumatic Experience

When I was about 10 years old we lived in this apartment building that had this creepy cellar with these storages for the residents which looked like this. We were there together with my dad to get something from there and I am super afraid of the dark. Well of course when I was in one of the storages the lights went out and I freaked out. It was horrible and my fear of the dark got even worse ;-; 

41. Where I would like to live

Overseas~ In a little apartment in the middle of a city or in a nice house in countryside with a lot of animals~

42. The nicest thing anyone’s ever said to me

It’s funny how it’s easier to remember the bad things… There was a time when someone said that I’m perfect just the way I am ´u`

43. Do I like where I am right now?

Well I’m in the middle of my final exams so not really

44. What I can hear right now

Well I’m listening to Malice Miser’s Illuminati right now so I’m hearing that x3

45. My relationship with my sibling(s)

I have two siblings, one step-sister and one step-brother. I think we’re pretty close ;w; We always have awesome time together~ And I can tell my sister everything and she’s always there to give me advice if I need it ♥

46. All of the pets I’ve ever had

This has been answered too~

47. My biggest worry currently

What will I do when I graduate! @-@

48. Sometimes I’ve wished for repeatedly

I have this vision in my head of what I would like my life to be like. I wish for it to become true every once in a while~

49. My relationship with my parents

Pretty good I think~ I tell my mother almost everything and with my dad we do have some arguments but that is because we both have such strong opinions. And usually they’re completely different :b

50. What words make me the best about myself

…I don’t get this one T3T

51. Something I should have said a long time ago

“I’m sorry for putting you through all this, I still truly love you”

52. What my last text message says

“Remember its daddy’s birthday today so don’t forget to congratulate him x3”

53. What I hate most about myself

Hm… Probably that I blush very easily… It’s just ridiculous :’D It has given me many awkward moments in my life ._.

54. Biggest turn ons

Pretty much same things that in question 18~ But also good personal hygiene and I like it when guys act protectively ´u` I was also going to say great humor buuut my own humor is so bad that I laugh pretty much at everything :b So I think almost everyone can make me laugh~

55. What words upset me the most

“Worthless”… Can’t think of anything else~

56. What I hate/hated the most about school

The part when I went to high school and our lessons’ length changed from 45 minutes to 75minutes… Couldn’t it just be an hour? ;A;

N ♥ 

XV

I really enjoyed doing the last tag so here's another one for you! This is a little more like get-to-know-me-better kind of thing x3 And the anime convention and senior's day entry is on it's way! I just wanted to do this before it ;-; This tag has 56 question but I decided to do this in two parts~

1. Sexual Orientation

Although I find men more attractive sexually I think I could still be together with a right girl too~ In the end it’s all about love, not the person’s sex :b

2. What I’m really bad at

I think I suck at dancing :’D

3. The one person who’s arm I’d like to be in

Well there is someone but I’m not gonna tell who he is~

4. My Best First Date

I’ve never been on a date before :0

5. A description of my self-esteem

I think I have quite a great self-esteem? I don’t care what people think about my appearance or my personality ^-^ I think I’m fine just the way I am.

6. Who my best friends are

I have this one friend that I’ve known more than 11 years already so she’s really special to me ^-^

7. My favorite book

It has to be Haruki Murakami’s Norwegian Wood

8. Biggest turn offs

Hmm… When the person smells bad and who doesn’t have any respect on others. Oh and drunk people, I find them scary >3>

9. A description of my best friend

Well she’s pure awesomeness! She has as shitty humor as I do and that makes her so perfect company for me ♥ She’s gorgeous and I’m thankful for that she’s been by my side all these years ;w;

10. My favorite animal

Pet rats? Or bears… Or foxes… Can’t decide! ;A; Alpacas are pretty neat too

11. Someone I miss

My siblings ;w;

12. The reason behind my last break up

It’s too personal to share on the internet! >-<

13. What I did yesterday

I played Tales of Xillia and Super Smash Bros Brawl with my bro and sis the whole day x3

14. What my greatest achievements are

Hmm… This one is tough. Well this just came to my mind and it might sound a little silly but I was able to make “a formal phone call” few days back! I’m so afraid of phone call and it made me feel awesome ;w;

15. A description of the person I dislike the most

I don’t really like wasting my time on disliking others… I just try to like everyone~

16. My favorite song right now

For the First Time in Forefer (Frozen), Paradise (Kim Jaejoong), Attention (Trouble maker) and LA Song (Rain) to mention few~

17. How my first kiss went down

I haven’t had my first kiss yet~

18. What I find attractive in the preferred sex

Voice! It has to be his voice. I’m sucker for nice voices ´u` Also I want him to have a lot confidence and good self-esteem~

19. All of the pets I’ve ever had

I’ve never had a pet before ;-; But my sister had a doggie when she still lived here! His name is Nemo ^-^ He’s a cutie!

20. Favorite flavor of ice cream

Um liquorice or vanilla~

21. The one place I want to be right now

I don’t mind being at home but I would like someone to be here with me ;-;

22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me

“You’re always so fucking annoying and stupid!”

23. Where I have lived before

Well I’ve only lived in Finland and in this certain village but I’ve moved to 3 different houses so far~

24. I’ll love you if…

...you'll treat me like your little princess :b 

25. What are my future plans

I don’t know yet. But it’s sure that I’m going to move abroad at some point~ Just don’t know where yet!

26. An internal conflict I have with myself

Hmm… I have a habit of thinking too much and that causes me to panic a little. I’ve sometimes even gotten a panic attack >-<

27. What I’m doing tomorrow

Probably studying math!

28. What I want to be when I get older

I don’t knoooow ;A; It would be nice if it had something to do with music or video games tho~

N ♥

XIV

The cruise and anime convention are now both over and I should start studying for my finals now! But before that I've decided to take a little break from school stuff and just relax a few days ´u`

I'm going to tell you all about the awesome weekend I had but I haven't gotten the pictures from my friend yet. I'm gonna wait for them so that I can show you my outfit from the senior's day~

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It was Valentine's Day last Friday so I thought I should make an entry that fits the occasion >'D I know that this is kinda late already but still~ I decided to do this Valentine's Day tag that I found online. So enjoy reading it x3

1. What is your favorite Valentine’s Day treat? 

Hmm… Though I’m not a huge fan of sweet thing I do like chocolate! Especially those tiny chocolate eggs that they only sell during Valentine’s Day season. They’re called ‘Suklaasydän (chocolate heart)’ in Finnish but they still look like tiny eggs lawl~

2. Sweethearts or chocolate covered strawberries? 

Sweethearts! I hate strawberries.

3. What was your favorite Valentine’s Day memory? 

I haven’t really spent Valentine’s Day before. But I remember when I was still in primary school we had these heart-shaped papers which we called ‘hugging passports’ and we have to hug as many people as we could and write their names on the papers. It was fun ´u`

4. What movie would you rather watch on Valentine's Day: Pretty Woman or You've Got Mail?

Neither I guess~ I’m not big into for romantic comedies. I would prefer some horror movie so that I could snuggle with someone when things get scary :b

5. What celeb would you not mind having as your Valentine? 

It has to be SHINee’s Jonghyun~ He’s a romantic guy and we share the same interests like for example, love for horror genre. It would be easy for us to find something that we both would enjoy doing. And he knows how to treat a girl! ^w^

6. What would you do on your perfect Valentine's date? 

Since it’s still winter and pretty cold in here we wouldn't really be able to do things I would actually want to do on a date. But I would just love to hang out somewhere. We could go to a café to have some sweets and then wander around the town when it gets dark. Then we would look at the stars if the sky was clear since I absolutely love the night sky *-* And then he would walk me back home or even at the bus station (depending on where our date was). I think that would be a fine Valentine’s date!

7. Red or pink lips on Valentine’s Day? 

Pink probably. I don’t wear strong lipsticks.

8. What is your ideal Valentine's Day date outfit? 

It would depend on where we were going to spend the day~ But during the date that I described I would probably wear some cute cardigan and long pants since we would be outside a lot ^-^

9. Homemade or store-bought gifts? 

Both are fine~ But you shouldn't spend that much money on them! I would appreciate even the smallest things ´u`

10. Would you wear your hair up or hair down for a date night? 

Probably down? My hair is so short that it doesn't go up that well x3

N ♥

XIII

The past week has been a blast! Even though I think my final exams sucked... But I spent some awesome time with my friends ´u`

We went to Helsinki with my friend on Wednesday~ I had to buy some new clothes for the cruise. And I did find a whole outfit that day :O Its unusual for me to find something irl, I just prefer online shopping~ I found this nice denim vest with a studded skull on the back. Also I got some ripped black jeans ´u` 

Here is some lousy picture of the skull x3

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On Friday, my friends called me over for a ride and we decided to go some glow bowling! Even though I totally sucked at it we had great time. And yeah, I lost big time...

My friend hosted a party on Saturday so I stayed at her place over the weekend. We were supposed to  go to see some alpacas on Sunday but we were too lazy and decided to stay at her place instead ;w; Still, I had a nice time~

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Uwaa only two days till my senior's day and the cruise ;w; And then I'm going to this Finnish anime convention called Desucon Frostbite for the weekend~ I'm going to have a lot to talk about when I get back home! 

Also I've been thinking about the future of my blog. No I'm not going to quit blogging but as you know English is not my first language. 'Cause of that I don't enjoy writing entries that much anymore. So I've been thinking about changing the language to Finnish but that means my international readers can't understand a word of what I'm writing anymore ;-; I really need to think this through but I just wanted to let you know this now~ 

N ♥ 

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Hrrr it has been so cold for the past few days~ There hasn't been that much snow here during this winter but now its finally snowing. And it doesn't seem to have an end...

These past couple of weeks have gone running. I have my first final exams at the end of the week and had all kinds of training exams before them. Basically all I have done is studying~ But we have this event coming up in our school! Its a senior's day where us, the seniors, dress up in costumes and give a little show to the whole school ´u` At the end of the day we go on a ride with trucks and throw candy to students that are still in primary school~ And then we do for a 24 hour cruise! 

This year our school's theme is Hollywood so basically we have to dress up as characters from movies, actors or actresses. Or a basic evening dress is also fine. I got my costume a few days ago and its perfect *w*  Not gonna tell you what it is yet! It will be a surprise~

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Its finally the time of the year for Melodifestivalen again! Its this Swedish music contest where all sorts of artists and bands compete to be the one who represents Sweden in the Eurovision song contest~ And for those who don't know what that is, its basically a huge music contest that is shown all around Europe and its an honor to be able to represent your own country in there.

Yohio was in Melfest last year too but he placed second and didn't make it to the Eurovision. It was unfair since the Swedes voted him to the win but he didn't get enough votes from the other European countries that were voting too. I mean its Sweden's candidate so shouldn't it be their decision who they're going to choose? 

But anyways! This year Yohio's song is called To the End and it's written by Yohio himself with Andreas Johanson, Peter Kvint and Johan Lyander. It wasn't a bad song but it wasn't the best either. It was catchy nut I still prefer Heartbreak Hotel over it, which was his song last year. There was something missing.  I didn't get the "Wow" experience that I got last year. The choreography was a disappointment to be honest. Since Yohio has that much energy and he can move nicely on the stage then why shouldn't you make something exiting this year too? I mean you looked gorgeous but I would like to see something else than you just standing in the middle of the stage...

He did make it straight to the finals though! I knew I could trust Swedes in this one ´u` I hope he does something to the performance still, now that he has time to improve it. Here's the video from the show:

Best wishes,
N-chan~ ♥