XIX

Huah, it's over! I passed all my finals (well I'm not sure about math since we have some issues about the results in my school but I still think it went okay) so it means I finally finished my high school ;w; Now I just need to get my diploma in May but that's no biggie. 

Here, have my face! It's been quite a long time since you last saw it~

Man I'm glad that's over~ I have to say, Finnish high school is a hell on Earth, seriously. I had to study 65 books during these 3 years and had only 6 weeks to master each of them =3= My homework took easily more than 3 hours if I did them properly and cause of that I didn't have that much free time. Ugh, and those long days. I remember when I had to sit in classes from 8am to 5.30pm more than once a week >-< And since I don't live that close to my school I had to wait for my bus or walk at home but it would still take me about 45 minutes to get home. 

Oh and there's some things that I hates about the classes. One of them is presentations or maybe they're closer to speeches but anyways. I mean why does every freaking class need to have one? And does someone with a massive stage fright get some way to make them easier for her? Of course not. I remember when I went to talk about my Finnish teacher about my stage fright and if there were were any other way for me to do it since I've had panic attacks in these kinds of situations before. But he just gave me the most disgusting smile I've ever seen and told me to give the speech if I wanted to pass the class... Like seriously? I could have given the speech to him face to face and I don't think it would've made any difference. Well apart from that I wouldn't feel like dying in front of the class of course. But nooooo he decided to be a meanie >->

I also had two nervous breakdowns during these high school years. The first one was caused by some adversities that I had and the second one was simply from a lot of stress. I didn't know what I was going to do after I graduate, I couldn't think I would pass my finals, I didn't enjoy doing anything anymore cause I knew I always had something school related on my to do-list, I didn't have much social life outside my school and when I was at home I just sat in front of my tv or laptop or I just went straight to bed cause I was so tired thanks to my insomnia that I got when I entered high school. But luckily I got over them kinda quick and got myself together and now I'm feeling just fine.

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Not everything is bad about high school tho! I've learned so much during these years and I don't mean the school stuff >'D I don't think I would be this responsible and "grown up" as I am today if I hadn't entered high school. I organize my own things an I know it's only me that is responsible of my own actions. I've become more open towards other people and I'm not afraid of them anymore. I've met so many great people that have helped me to find myself and made me love myself as the way I am. Thanks to these people I can also understand others better and don't judge the book by it's cover anymore. 

Now I just need to figure out what I'm gonna do with all these school stuff =3= 

I'm sorry this turned out to be kind of a rant but I just wanted to let it all out D: Now I'm getting ready for my little trip to Sweden and I shall talk to you soon~

Oh and I might change my blogs address soon! I'll keep you updated.

N ♥

XVIII

My finals are in next week so I decided too do a quick update before them~ I've been studying like crazy this past month and I actually got pre-results of the first parts of my English and Finnish exams back last week~ And I have to say that I'm not that satisfied with them but I guess I'll have to do some better work in the second parts :b

Yesterday I was at Helsinki with my friend. We did some shopping but the main reason we went there was to see Backstreet Boys live ;w; I have to say that I've never been a die hard fan of them but since I'm a 90s kid they'll always have a special place in my heart ;w; ♥ And of course I had to go to see them this thime since Kevin is finally back, he's my favorite!

I had to get up quite early to catch the bus so that we'd have enough time to take care of our things in Helsinki. Sadly, I didn't get much sleep during the night before and I felt pretty tired >-< I'm such a baby when it comes to going to some special place or an event, I just get too excited :'D

But anyways! We managed to get to Helsinki in time and bought all stuff we had to. Then we arrived to the Hartwall Arena where the concert was held. It was funny that you could see how much older the age group was in the concert when people arrived only about 15 minutes before they opened the doors. Usually when I've been in a gig people arrive 3 or 4 hours earlier, just like we did at the GazettE's gig x3 Well after we got in I went to buy some merchandise since a gig t-shirt is always a must for me~ Then we went to the stand to see the opening bands. There was this one Finnish rapper but we kinda missed his show but after him there was this American acapella group called the Exchange. You should totally check them out, they were so sweet ;w; And they didn't just perform acapella music but also some more party-ish songs as well~

Well you know what came after those guys, the main performers themselves~ The boys were more than 20 minutes late, which sucked of course but luckily their show was worth it ;w; They played all the classics and 4 songs from their new album "In a World Like This". There were some speeches between the songs and they showed couple clips when the boys changed their clothes~ The show was sooo great and we actually got quite close to the stage considering that we came to the stand so late. I got to hear As Long As You Love Me live, which is my favorite song from them, and it was amazing ;w;

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I found this online and wanted to do my own version of it~ ...Three of the characters are from KnB lawl... Well what can I say, it's full of awesome guys! And there's actually "a real human" too! Daryl is just so amazing I had to put him there ;w; And ofc I have more fictional crushes but you could fit only 8 on this :b

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I think it's time for me to get back on studying when I still have time x3 Next entry that I'll make will come after my finals and I'm going to tell you how I felt about them ^-^

N ♥