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Hey, how's it going guys? I haven't written properly here in a long time. I thought I just keep writing whatever comes to my mind tonight and see how this is gonna go.

I haven't listened to soundtracks in forever. I wanted to listen to some music while writing but I can't concentrate if there's any lyrics so OSTs it is then. I have problems with Light's theme from Death Note, you know that one? It's playing right now. I love the song but I used to have it as my alarm so now it gives me creeps every time I hear it.

Not a lot has been happening in my life. No job, no school, just me watching series on Netflix all day long. I have already finished Modern Family, Dexter, How to get away with murder and the Carrie Diaries. I also watched two and a half seasons of American Horror Story but I dropped it 'cause it got pretty boring. *spoilers* I mean aliens and witches and that kind of stuff? It just isn't for me. *spoilers* But yeah, I went to see someone about my future and I found out I'm pretty screwed if I don't get to the university or get at least a job for the summer. But it's not time to worry about that yet, am I right?

I was thinking maybe I should start a new blog but this time in Finnish. But then again, I've started so many blogs that maybe I should just stick with this one, haha. I've also planned something else but since there's no glory in the process I'm not gonna say anything about it. New blog would be a fresh start though. And it might be easier to write it in Finnish than in English. I don't know, I really need to think about it.

I'm really running out of good instrumental music in here. I've forgotten which songs are good and which are not. So many songs I didn't even remember existed. I decided to finally learn to play True Light's piano version myself. The one from D.N. Angel. I tried to learn it maybe four or five years ago but it's so damn hard. But since I got nothing better to do maybe I'll learn it this year. I really feel like watching that anime again. Did you know it was the first anime I saw? That's why it holds such a special in my heart. It has an amazing soundtrack though. So even if you don't feel like watching the whole series, I recommend to listen to the OST.

I haven't been able to sleep properly this past week. I don't know why and I might be starting to stress about it a little. I don't want to be that tired again. I hate it. Feeling so exhausted all the time, don't feel like doing anything. But maybe it's just nothing. That reminds me, who the hell says that high school is the best time of your life? It was awful. Yeah, all the people in there were awesome but mentally it was pure hell. I think I wrote about this before so I won't go to any details but I don't really want to go back.

I saw I started to write an entry in here but never finisher or published it. It was about something personal that I haven't really told anyone. I think there are only two or three people who know about it, maybe? Not sure if I'm gonna ever publish that entry though. We'll just have to wait and see.

I'm starting to get really tired now. I should go and try to get some sleep. I apologize is this was messy but I just felt like writing. Good bye for now~